Lovely - are we officially living in a police state now? People, I am getting exceedingly concerned about the powers the police forces in this country have. Maybe I am alarmed for nothing but just as when I am riding, I like to listen to the little spidery senses that tickle my neck at the hair line...this is one of those times.
Another Alberta rider has died, this time in a head on collision on Anarchist Mountain near Osoyoos. Apparently he crossed the centre line and hit a van.
My heart goes out to his family and loved ones. The RCMP have determined that excessive speed was the major contributing cause in the death of a rider in the Lethbridge region.
Again, my heart breaks for the loved ones left behind.
There are other things in the news today but to be honest, I don't have much heart for any of it.
I am dealing with some news of my own right now that has shaken me a bit. OK, it's shaken me to my very core.
I have a brother that I have been estranged from for about 9 years. He and I used to be pretty close...
My brother had a really hard time believing that our father had molested me and so we agreed to disagree and stay away from each other. It was a hard time for both of us, and while his rejection of my truth hurt deeply, I accepted that he needed to figure it out on his own. Well, that day may never come for us as my brother was diagnosed with terminal cancer two days ago and given between 3 months and a year to live, however, as in all things Cancer, his time may be far shorter and he has asked to see me. I am rearranging my schedule so that I can go to see him.
The family dynamics being what they are has made this news tougher to take. I love my brother, I don't always agree with him and I don't always like him but he is my brother and I know he feels the same way about me, may not like or understand stuff but he loves me. I feel cheated that we have missed out on 9 years. That I never got to see my nephew graduate last week and that my brother and I never got to do the things that brothers and sisters should do. I am angry at my dad for never making things "right" before he died and I am deeply, profoundly sad right now.
So as I get ready to head out for the Cancer Run in Fort Saskatchewan and then to the New Castle Pub for the Little Warriors Poker Run I am going to honour my brothers wish and ask you all - if you smoke, if you love a smoker PLEASE, encourage them to quit. (Ironic isn't it - I am going to a cancer event - and a sexual abuse run - profound and poetic...)
I am asking you all for your prayers that my brother makes peace with his choices and that I find the strength I am going to need to deal with the pain I am feeling, God help me because I am so angry and filled with so much pain and deep, deep sadness right now...
I love you all - even when we don't agree or see eye to eye and now more than ever it is important to me that I tell you that.You - the riding community are my family in so many ways..
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