I finally arrived home last night - as I pulled into the driveway it was with such happiness - I was so grateful for a great sales trip, grateful to be home, anxious to see my husband.
My daughter's car was out front and hubby was gone for his massage appointment.
I walked in to the house and my daughter says "Hi mom, glad you are home safe and sound...I have good news and bad news - what do you want first..."
"Bad news" I said...
"Mark's MS has flared up and he didn't want to tell you while you were away"
I swallowed hard - "OK, and the good news?"
"He caught on early to the warning signs, is already getting steroid treatment which is starting to work, has appointments for an MRI and with a neurologist"
Oh boy - that was a wake up call and a half.
I love my husband with all of my heart and here I have been working until I drop every day and not giving him as much time and love as he deserves - it is truly time for me to re-evaluate what I am doing and finding the help I need to get some balance in my life...
It's been 7 years since his last flare up and we were thinking that the doctors were wrong about it being MS as there has never been a definitive diagnosis - they said they couldn't give one until he had another flare up..well, we have it now.
I am in need of an admin assistant, a financial partner and some sales staff that really want to produce results. I need to find some balance between paying the bills from the bike show fiasco, the newspaper and web site and spending time with my husband. I can't do this by myself anymore. My husband needs to be a priority.
I am putting this out there with the hope that someone out there might be someone interested in partnering with me...
I am looking for all of the positives in this situation - I know they are there, it's been a bit hard to absorb everything...
My riding season will need to be revised until we know how things are going to go for hubby, he has to be my priority now - and in retrospect, he should have been more of a priority all along. He is my rock - my most staunch supporter and the best thing that has ever happened to me.
This is a wake up call for me - you never know in life what will happen and you really need to love your spouse - take time with them, be with them because you never know when things will go south.
HELP - please - if you know anyone who might be interested in any avenue to work with me and continue growing what we have here - send them my way - I really need a team...
Ride like everyone around you is blind...stay safe.
Belt Drive Betty
Dear Betty...I can't even begin to imagine what thoughts are going through your head and heart right now...
ReplyDeleteJust take a moment and reflec for now you have to be even stronger than before.
Life could deal us bad blows...and it does so every time it can..every time we think we're out of the woods now.
The point is ...you must have faith..faith in your family, the building bock, faith in yourself and spouse and children, faith in God...for only in God's grace can we proceed.
You and your family will make iot and come out of this a stronger unit. Hang in there ...!
Don't hang up your boots yet for there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.
ReplyDeleteWe are both pretty strong people and we love each other deeply. I know we will get through this.
ReplyDeleteIt is however very hard to watch someone you love struggle so - and to know you can only offer support and can do nothing to alleviate the pain.
Thanks for your kind words